Things around here are busy now. Lots of things are happening and coming up. Good things like weddings and visits with family. Busy things like projects around the house and preparing for visitors. Fun things like swimming at the lake and picnics in the park, writing and planning. Overall life is good and full but sometimes when things get very busy I find it hard to focus.
I have known for the last few weeks that I’ve been unfocused. I’ve been struggling on my journey through the Bible. I lack focus in the mornings and find myself drifting in prayers. This morning I knew something had to give when I found myself obsessing about my bridesmaid dress and whether or not it would look ok while I was supposed to be meditating and reflecting. I could not bring myself around to anything else. My thoughts were too scattered and I was a little disappointed.
At times like these I feel like I’m being tumbled in the dryer. There’s lovely warm air in there and it isn’t all bad but the constant movement of life and the seemingly never ending stream of events can wear a girl down. I need a little room to breathe. I need a place to stop moving and just exist.
Last night at 8:30 I slipped out of my house and headed down to the lake. My son was in bed and my husband was busy reading about sports so I decided to head down to watch the sunset. It was beautiful and healing. The quiet beach. The waves on the shore. It was absolutely what I needed.
As I walked down the metal staircase and came closer to the sand I knew I had made the right decision. The shoes soon came off and my feet sunk into the sand.
Walking at the beach was wonderful. The water was warm and playful, the sand was soft and untouched. As I walked along the shore I found a reminder that I needed. My eye happened to find some lake glass, broken glass that has been tumbled in the lake and softened over time. The waves create texture and soften it’s appearance. Each piece has character and history. It came from somewhere, was a part of something. I have to confess that I’ve never actually noticed lake glass before. Every year when I walk on the beach in PEI I look for sea glass and have found some beautiful pieces but never before while walking the shores near home have I ever noticed them. I needed to notice it yesterday. I needed to remember the when life is chaotic and you feel tossed around, something is happening to you. Edges are softened, the texture deepens and in the end you come out okay.
Things around here are busy now and lots of things are coming up but in the end things will be fine. While I may not have focus now, it will come in time. As things happen and I get tumbled around my edges are softening, the texture in my story deepens and change happens. Change happens and change can be wonderful even if it takes a little tumbling to get there.