I was the first up in the house this morning. While that used to always be the case I’ve found in the last few months more often than not one of the boys is greeting me before dawn demanding action and adventure. When you’re young life is always an adventure and where there’s adventure there is sure to be action. Anyways I had peace this morning. So much peace that I was able to catch up on some reading and meet Jesus first thing.
I needed this time today. Lately I’ve found myself pulled and tugged as we work through some difficult programs in therapy. I have been struggling with doubts and worries about my abilities and strength. I am at times consumed with thoughts of the future and what it might hold for my son. I’m also working this weekend so I’m really having to fight to find good moments in which to prepare. It can be a less than peaceful existence if I don’t stop and take time to meet God, to remember that I am not the one who holds it all together. To remember that he carries me through and provides me with strength.
In my morning reading I came across a verse that was a great reminder those very things. Jesus gave peace to us freely and reminds us to lay our troubles and worries down. His peace is always there, always available if we look for it and listen for him. As I walk through today I find myself looking for moments filled with that peace and I know I am not the only one this Holy Week feeling overwhelmed and frazzled. Whether you’re cooking dinner for 15 or leading worship multiple times this week my prayer for you is that you find the promised peace and meet God in the journey as we travel towards the open tomb.