It was a tough day today. I’m happy to be sitting here at the end of it with my pyjamas on ready to launch into an episode of Castle. It’s mindless entertainment and I know I should be doing other things but today I embrace that which is easy. Still it is Wednesday and I was to have finished a book by this day. Did I? I did. I’m rather pleased that it’s going so well but it helps to have picked books that I’m really enjoying. This week I read Eager to Love: The Alternative Way of Francis of Assisi by Richard Rohr and I found it an absolutely wonderful read.
“Seek grace not instruction, desire not understanding, Seek the groaning of prayer over diligent reading, Seek the spouse more than the teacher, Seek God not man, darkness not clarity, Not light but the fire itself.” – Richard Rohr, Eager to Love
This is one of my favourite statements from the book. I really find nothing wrong with the intellectual pursuits of faith but sometimes I wonder if we get lost in them. What really matters in life is how we live it. It is good to know, to study and challenge but it is only good if it impacts us as we live our lives. What good is it to know about God if we aren’t seeking to know God.
This afternoon I ran across these figurines that I haven’t noticed in a while. One looking up, the other down and they both seem happy but the one looking down is connected to this world through the bird she is holding. I wonder if at times we get so hung up on how we’re going to get to heaven that we forget what a gift this life is. I think at times we miss connecting with God and each other here because we’re so busy trying to get to the next level, next phase, next whatever. When we live for the future we can forget about the present and the gifts that are contained here and now.
It really was a lovely read but it did call me to account and I realized that I really do need to live here and love now. I cannot always be thinking about what will happen after my son’s therapy or when I go back to work or when my husband and I can get away. I need to be thinking about this moment, this time and the gifts of God within it. I need to be connecting to God now not on Sundays or someday but here in the present. I used to do this rather naturally. I suspect with the busyness of life right now it’s harder for me. This realization has assisted me in the choosing of my next book, The Miracle of Mindfulness: An Introduction to the practice of Mediatation by Thih Nhat Hanh. I suspect it will aid me in my quest to find the blessing in each moment.